Sunday, July 4, 2021

Fledging of Downy Woodpeckers

 

 

THE FLEDGING OF DOWNY WOODPECKERS

 Copyright 2021 Don Ray.  Feel free to print and share.

Watching downy woodpecker babies.  Skipping  coyotes this morning in case downies fledge.  At 05:30 they were quiet but by 05:40 they were noisy.

But the cool of the morning does not appeal to them.  They are not sticking their heads out nearly as often or for as long as in the heat of yesterday afternoon.  

Their heads fill the doorway!  I mean fill it!....as if it is barely big enough.  

Little boy is hogging the window but sister puts in appearances for breakfast.  

The brother with his scarlet punk "do" is pecking!  He already knows he's a woodpecker!  I noticed a new little divot at the bottom of the door-frame and I wondered if the babies had made it, as unlikely as that seemed.  But bigger than anything, once brother started appearing in the doorway he would often do a little ratatat into the wood around the edge of the door!  

Now when he sticks his head out he twists his neck to look down and sideways and straight up, visually exploring the new three dimensional universe that awaits his bold entry.  

08:16

Brother seems agitated.  In and out.  In and out.

Dad arrives with a green bug.  Dad has to work and work to finally get it to the sister.  

I am surprised there are any bugs left in the county at the rate parents shovel them into these ravenous chicks.  

I don't want to take my eyes off the show.  Brother seems aware of my presence, retreating when I make a motion.  

Sister is also agitated, squeezing her body through the narrow opening.  I get claustrophobic just watching them.  

Mom teases, holding the bug away, making sister come out a little further.  

Everything encompassed in this moment, the entire universe, all Life, all right here, right now, an interminable now.

A calm, a tension, a peace, a suspense, anticipation and fear, all here, all now.

Babies stretch further out.  Parents keep feeding.

Sis stays out a long time.  It’s hard to see how they can squeeze their bodies through that tiny passage.  I wonder if they literally could become trapped if they grow much more, but then remember the parents got in and out of that opening while building this home. 

Sis has never kept her head out this long.  I wondered if brother had fledged while I was away.  But no, eventually, in a squeezing, wrestling exchange, she goes in and brother comes out.

Looking, looking, down and around, up and around,

Mom delivers again, waits, sits by the doorway…..  The sense of calm increases when she arrives, in black and white, like a flying nun.

Exchange again, now sis replaces brother in the doorway, both anxious, both squirming.  Hot sun glares off the trunk of the aspen.  Sis has a softer cheep, not as loud, not as sharp.

It seems they stretch a little further each time they appear, or is that my wishful imagination.

The pauses with no face in the entrance are now due not to nap time but     to the wrestling exchange of one trying to get around the other.

Surely this flight will happen, it must happen.  More and more they extend out.  How long can this continue?  

Sis is also pecking at the wood of the entrance.  She’s got almost half her body out!  Now back in.

Mom relents and comes to the door to feed her, a reward for the effort.  Brother’s peeps are muted by sis filling the passage.  But he’s in there, also wanting out.

This fledge might go now….

She flies!  Down at a 45 degree angle!  I saw it!  Thank You!  Thank You!  Thank You!

Brother finally appears, seeming perplexed.  Looking around.  Much quieter than he has been, a little shocked and confused that sister is gone.  He’s the most subdued...well,,,,ever.

Dad comes and gives him a snack.  He almost seems more relaxed.  Thank God no jays or magpies were around when sis fledged.

Oh life!

Brother remains in the doorway, occasionally peepsing, but with long pauses to absorb the new situation and consider his fate and destiny.

All here, the universe, all Life, in the singularity of this eternal moment.

Dad returns to feed brother.  Brother seems not agitated….   or?....he stretches out a little further.  A little further.  Dad coaches from a branch of the nearby dead aspen tree.

Brother remains though.  In and out.  But less agitated than earlier.  I immediately lost sight of sister when she went down into the bushes and ground cover.  

She wanted out!  Brother sits quietly.  Now more active, in and out, in and out, as if trying to find a way to get through the narrow opening.  Such a huge world awaits

Surely soon.  Where is sister?  Such blessing to witness this.  Such a right and holy living event.,,,,,unless you’re a bug.

There’s mom.  She’s working the nearby stump for snacks.  The parents don’t seem at all excited about all this…..unlike the finch family I watched where dad especially got absolutely vocally ecstatic upon fledging of the family.

Brother has returned to asking for lunch.  Or?....is that sister?  She seems a little fluttery!  It is sister 1!  She’s working up the trunk!  She must have landed at its base  Now she reaches the plastic I wrapped around the trunk to protect the robin’s nest from Cal kitty.  She’s all fuzzy!  But she knows how to hold on in classic downy pose to a vertical trunk!    Too good!

Brother’s acting just as he did all morning.  Maybe a little further out now.  There’s sis again.  She’s looking for lunch!  Look at that!  Oh, she flutters down out of sight.  She can hop and climb but not fly.

There’s another little girl in the nest doorway!  Two sisters!

Mom’s chirping warnings.  I don’t know why.

Babies remain inside, deep, enjoying their new spacious accommodations.  

The fledgling again makes it up to the plastic on the trunk, and is then bamboozled by the plastic, trying to peck at it.  It’s pitiful.

She does a great job getting up and around the trunk!  She wants to go higher.  

Such a beautiful little girl!  

There is not a hint of more fledging in the offing.  Nobody in the entrance. 

“Number One” tries to hop higher onto the plastic, which only sends her fluttering down again.  Oh what a sad unintended consequence! She knows what to do!  It should work!  She should get up into a  branch!  She’s already back  Now brother sticks his head out.  NO question, there is a second sister.  Amazing!

Dad arrives and feeds brother.  He’s set.  Why leave this deal?  

Peepsing sound has returned, from deep inside.  It’s as if the system dictates someone leave to make room, spreading out the departure fledgings, perhaps to optimize the chance of one hitting an opportune time.

Mom feeds, now inside the door, not trying to draw anyone out.  

Sister one hops out of the bushes, under the shade of the car, and further to the edge of the yard.  On the ground, in contrast to on the tree, she looks fluffy and awkward and vulnerable.  I think I hear a parent peepsing from over there.  I go look but cannot see her.  That’s probably the last I’ll ever see of her.  

Meanwhile at the door no one is visible.  The usual chattering continues.  But the frantic heads out of the entrance are no more.  It really is as if someone had to go.  Now the ones still there are content to stay inside.

Sister two sticks her head out for feeding.  Mom obliges.  Now sister two keeps her head out.   

Oh what’s happening to that brave first baby!  

Looks out the doorway are now brief.  And it’s almost always a sister, not the brother.  

I’m glad I skipped watching the coyotes this morning!  But now I don’t think there’s a pressing reason to keep watching the downies. 

Wow, what a drama.  What an unexpected turn of events.  

Brother puts in an appearance.  The feeding is now rapid fire, mom and dad making quick sequence appearances, like I’ve never seen.  Hardly a minute elapses between visits.  I hope someone is looking after sister 1.

Brother is just active enough to keep me watching, just in case.  

It is interesting what a sense of anticipation there was before that first fledging.  Some sense, unjustified by any visual evidence, that something major was about to unfold.

Oh look at that!  He was way out!  Then went in.  Now out again.  Of course, this could go on for days.  

He’s coming in and out though, quickly, as if something might happen.  I’m drained from the first fledging.  

Brother seems to have overcome his shock upon the departure of his sister.

They have the longest, flicking tongue, almost like a snake.  

For a moment brother almost flopped out, before scrambling back in.  

He’s about as active as he was this morning.

Lordy, what a commitment, to fledge!

It can’t be a good sign that his sister never came back to report on what’s out there.  Man, he was almost out!  Now out!  Flying!  He really flew!  Up  Across the street!  No flopping or descending!

Now another brother!  My gosh!  How big must that apartment be?!

What a show.

He’s got his head out, but doesn’t seem as frantic yet. 

There’s an interesting building of activity before each fledging.  Now he’s getting more and more frequent in his extensions and retreats.  

I can’t believe I’m getting to watch this.  Had it happened yesterday I would have missed it as I was doing volunteer support.

I can’t believe the parents managed to distribute food among four siblings!

This is like watching a clown car, as if there is a hole in the base of the trunk and babies keep entering and coming up to exit from the nest.

. It must be 1.5 hours since the first sister fledged.

Bother 2 (I can’t believe I’m saying that.) is keeping his head out for extended periods.  Now he’s really leaning out!  

There is no justification for my sitting and watching this.  But surely it is sublimely right.  How could I not watch?

What suspense!  Any second a new life could fly into the world.

Yep, back and forth, back and forth.  In and out, in and out.  Decision, decision.

Little lurches forward.

Feeding

The red on the brothers’ heads really does look like a sloppy punk mohawk die job.  

After feeding, this guy is not too squirmy.  He seems settled in for a little longer.

10:52.

No appearance of the sister.  Brother’s hogging the doorway.  Now in and out, in and out.  Not too far.  Feeding.  Dropped it!  Darn!  Disappointing.  Didn’t quite make the transfer.

That may be part of the parents not sticking the food too far in as a way to get babies out.  

11:00.  All quiet.

Feeding.  brother  comes out.  Sister comes out.  They are nicely exchanging times at the door.  And often staying inside.  

There is no convincing anyone to enjoy such events.  I suppose the world would not function if too many people spent too much time celebrating such events.    Though I’m not sure the world would be any worse off.

These are unjustifiable joys, joys not an obligation of social convention.  Peculiarly individual joys.  These are rich joys, impossible to convey.  Hence they are empowering joys.  And they are joys of life.

To the few capable, or willing, to savor such joys, I encourage and commend you.  The world will not do so.  But I pray you to hold on to your capacity to savor the beauties of life.      They are real and enduring and nourish the soul.

The world will discourage such delights.  Sorrow for the world.

Watch enthralled as Nature proceeds at its own pace.  Practice patience.  Have faith that you will be sustained by the Creator of that Nature and Creator of you.

Look around, see, just as the baby downy is doing now with its head out the door.  Look around, all directions.  Know wonders, and know a cornucopia of them is right here and now.

Sister 2 is way out.  Not backing up, not returning.  

Staying out.  Not letting brother 2 have a look.

Food begging continues.  She’s active.  In and out.  Again, in and out.  

Again.  Again.  Again.  But now as far out.  Winds must be intimidating.  They com in gusts.  

I can’t take my eyes off her.  I now know how unexpectedly these launches can happen.  

Feeding.  Way out.  Almost away.  No.  Back in.  Looked like she got scared of being out so far.  

But now in and out again.  And in and out.  Life happens ins such a flash, you dare not take your eye off it.  It teases and tempts and then the flash of that moment of jumping into a new universe.

Oh, little family.  Precious beyond words.  

Too much invested in these little downies?  Of course.  Indefensible.  But such rich rewards.      

11:22

Sister 2 won’t relinquish the window.

Out a bit further!  Feeding!  But not launched.  She really reaches out when mom or dad arrive.  Now brother 2 appears, finally.  In and out, in and out.  

Sister 2’s position was so ready to launch!  

Brother 2 says she had her chance.  His turn now.  

How long can I stare at that tree trunk?!

16:04

Before the first two fledgings, the parents would tease the babies with food, getting the little guys to stretch out of the nest.

Immediately after the fledgings, for the remaining two babies, the parents fed them right in the doorway, no stretching or reaching required.

Now in the early evening, dad just made the little brother stretch multiple times to get his dinner.  

Next day

 07:16

downy routine continues.

Parents are outpacing the eating of the two remaining babies.  Sometimes the parents have to wait for a chick to come to  the door.

Cool and cloudy this morning.  Last night the fledged older brother and sister experienced their first ever rain.  

I can hear the babies eating, “smacking their lips” as they smack their bills on whatever bug mom or dad brought.  

The little guys seem in no rush to leave.  They are quite animated when feeding approaches, stretching way out, but then disappearing entirely.  The damp weather may play a role in that.  

11:28

Is it worth it?  Will it really be such a thrill to see these last two chicks fledge?  Oh, it will be a thrill.  But there is no way to answer the first question.  The time invested is ridiculous.  It’s probably too cool and cloudy for them to fledge today.  

Every sound sends them back inside.  A clunk in the house...back in.  A clunk of construction or yard work down the street….back in.  How terrifying it must be, the prospect of entering this world!  In that regard, fledging, with its preceding prolonged awareness and observation of the world, would be a more terrible experience than even birth.  

14:35

Little sister

Mom entices little sister out, holding the food just out of reach.

The baby gets stuck!  She got too far out!  The opening is a one way hole.  Her wings are stuck!  She finally gets one wing out!  After an eternity she gets the second wing out!  She holds on to the trunk with both feet, gets up next to the door…...then flies!  To the east, like her siblings! No fluttering down like her big sister, but upward flight, gone in a flash.   I race down the stairs to try to see where she went, but like her two predecessors, she’s gone, probably never to be seen again.  

Next day

06:10

At window, listening for little rapid fire peeps of the fourth and last downy.  I think it’s gone

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Thursday, July 1, 2021

Natural Faith

Natural Faith

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Deer and coyotes

Deer stand on the trail above the gamboling coyote pups in the valley, a mother and yearling deer maybe.

The deer look down at the source of noise and motion and leave the trail to head for it!  They twist through the brush, negotiating openings and turning to go right into the middle of the bare spot where the coyotes play!

The pups scatter!

The deer head back up to the trail, the coyotes return to the opening.  The deer again focus their attention below the trail, again come down, the larger lead deer with its head down, moving with intent into the coyote area!  The coyotes again disappear but regroup in an adjacent opening in the brush.  The lead deer swings below the coyotes, then doubles back up the slope to where a few remain!

Finally, the pair of deer head back up the slope to the trail.  

The coyote family has regrouped a little further south in a different red dirt opening.  The deer now look in that direction, and now return down the slope to the new gathering spot, taking yet another pass at their canine neighbors, again breaking up the group!

Is this play?...or curiosity?.....or preemptive defense?......or establishing dominance to make a first impression in hopes of warding off later threat from the grown coyotes?

The deer return to their course on which they were travelling before the detour.  Puppy play resumes.

Running and chasing and spinning and boxing and running and running and running, flashing into view across the red soil in the gaps between the junipers across the valley, groups chasing this way then turning the tables and becoming the chased, cutting tight racing curves around the bases of the trees, pawing at their quarry as they catch it, full speed for the entire hour, so alive, so youthful, tails extended out in health and joy.

Finally puppy play winds down, and beautiful  coyotes pose majestically in sun lit open patches of bare soil, lying beside each other, 

Lying next to each other, rolling over, mouthing

Sitting so prettily, fur glowing white and red in morning sun.

.  It is a good morning, a very good morning.

Days later:

Coyote ridge, sunrise.

No little  coyote family.  I look and look to no avail.  I knew this day would come…...but what’s that sound?  From the mini-slot canyon, it just might be….I cannot imagine anything else making that sound.

How they blessed my life!  What a dream come true. What a gift of presence and the Spirit and companionship and connection.  Thank You!  Thank You!  Thank You!

Little coyotes gone?  It had to be someday.  I will worry about them.  

Presence of Spirit, connection of essence of Spirit, deep sharing of Life, Nature and its children offer us that gift.  In Bodhi kitty's little chattering conversations as you walk by, in his insistent and remarkable communication that he has pottied, in his excited running into the kitchen to get a treat, there is essence of life, a connection needing no extrapolation or interpretation, the other’s need and desire and joy my need and desire and joy.   

Coyote yelp!  No question!  Sounds like it is just beyond the south dam.  Looking for family?  Announcing capture of a treasure?  

The universe of the conscious experience, an expanding universe, for time is nothing more than the expansion of  conscious experience, always growing, always incorporating, even if fragile physical synaptic structures give the illusion of “past” and “forgotten” as connections break and decay.

The universes of the conscious experience, interfacing and bumping up against each other, colliding and conflicting, and on exquisitely rare and beautiful occasions overlapping.

These expanding universes of consciousness and awareness,  reluctantly incorporating the intersections of mutually shared experiences, yet craving mutually shared experiences, always prompt to take the opportunity to inject their conscious experience into the experience of the other, always resistant to having the other’s conscious experience absorbed into their own.

But in rare moments, in the scruffing of a kitty’s ear as it rubs its head against your hand, in the wordless communication that captures the ineffable bond between pet and human, in watching coyote puppies play and joust and race,  the overlap of the universes of conscious experience is shared and mutually experienced, not in mere communication and interaction at the edges of those expanding universes, but in actual overlap of the experience, mutually shared essence of experience.  In such wordless  moments we finally know what it is to not be alone.

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At the ranch

One of the two big black horses was nuzzling the little pigs this morning, on and on before he knew I was watching, licking and grooming, the two little pigs together. 

So sweetly he treated the little pigs!....nuzzling and licking on and on as I kept my distance.  Instinct told me this was one of those glimpses into secrets of Nature, and once White-tummy horse noticed me the moment ended, little piggies going about their business.

All seems to fit this morning, in this sage moment, all seems to fit.  Each sound of bird and each imperceptible movement of damp air all fit into a Wholeness.  Mystery can wait, surely productivity can wait.  Some treasures are too precious to not lavishly spend.

“There will be time enough, there will be time enough” seems to whisper the Spirit as the hands race wildly around the watch dial.

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Hillside

So beautiful, this simple hillside.  So beautiful in peace and momentary safety.

The big yellow butterflies, the tall, tall green, the quiet, the blessed quiet.

Angels tread lightly in this tall grass, angels bringing their ministrations, bringing their manna for the soul.

Angels visit, invisible and inaudible, certainly not in white robes, though maybe in white jeans.

Angels visit and linger and even dwell, bringing tidings of presence and sustaining Spirit.

No wings these angels, for they have no need of wings.  Their message is a revealing of what soul already knows, written in runes and whispered in tongues.  Not to be taken too seriously, these incorporeal angels, easily mistaken for breeze or rustling grass.

So beautiful, so beautiful this hillside and its air, air that smells of life.  So precious, the feel of the texture of grass seed stalks 

Time abates, languorously flowing hand in hand with warm breeze.  This is no place for brazen miracles or amped up prophets.  This is prophecy for the taking, lessons rich and plentiful embedded in the miracle of this lush moment.

Green and blue meet in sharp and ragged edge, these colors of Source.  

Let a grass stalk brush your hand, listen well for what you may not hear but will understand without hearing.  Know without seeing, understand without hearing, fear not the mystery of Communion.

The only threat here is that you will miss the beauty, that you will hurry and miss how luxuriantly long a moment can be.  

Let air full of life fill your nostrils while a blank awareness full of Spirit fills your soul.  

Look intently at what most would call “nothing” and discern what the angels would tell you.  

Ride the ripples of time that give birth to moments eternal, yes, moments eternal that beckon to awareness.

See the futility of denial;  there is far more here than you might have hoped.  Carry it with you, this eternal moment, this knowing the unknowable, this seeing the unseeable, this understanding of the inexplicable.

Carry it with you that you may come Home.  

In time, in time, we will all learn as we are ready.  In time, in time, we will all share such moments. 

For now, let the angels dance.  Let them tend your soul, your long-neglected soul.  

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Frantic

The robin parents frantically cheep and cheep, or should I say cry and cry?  I hear one for the longest time up near the top of the Aspen tree.  From the other end of the area I heard it.  Are they calling a warning to the lost babies?  Are they letting them know to stay put, wherever they are under the foliage?

From the tree!  A baby!  At the corner!  Dad stays with it.  Dad stays low with it, near the ground, making the same call as the mother:  “cheep…...cheep…….cheepcheepcheepcheepcheepcheep” the first two sharp and loud, then the last ones mumbled and trailing off.  They sound so frantic!  The baby makes little squeak sounds in response.  This baby is all the way to the fence. near the gate.  It flutters at the base of the fence.  Will it listen to dad?  Will it understand?  Louder squeaks!  Everyone is scared!  Dad is on the ground with it, then dad goes to a branch right above it.  The baby flutters to the base of the tree.  The little precious conversation of life and tenderness continues.  Dad flutters near the ground.  Mom makes her call still from up high.  The baby heads to the sunflowers.  It is too active!   It should stay still!  I want to put it in the nest!.....but I fear that would only multiply stress and compound problems.  The baby sits on a rock fully out in the open.  It needs days before it can fly!  It sounds so lost and forlorn and scared and perplexed and puzzled and worried!  It flutters toward me.  Surely it would never sit still in the nest again.

The little one hops under the overhang with me!  It hops onto my foot!  Such plaintive little chirps!  It stays some time on my foot.  Should I again try to put it in its homey cozy little nest?  Has its adventure satisfied it and is it ready to go home?  Would it stay this time?  What to do?!  What not to do?!  It hops off, looking for home, reaching the base of the stairs that lead to its home.  Oh, to rescue it!  

It wanders around, its oversized feet hopping under the roof, its undersized wings unable to even fly over the drainpipe.  I hear rain drops.  I hear thunder.  The best place for it is surely under the overhang right where I sit.  It has gone around the corner.  Mom cries.  Dad cries.  The baby cries.  The fate of the other two baby robins remains unknown.  Hopefully one remains in the nest.  

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Is this what happened to us?  Did we leave the nest too soon?  In good time would we have been given access to the Tree of Knowledge?  Is that why we are so lost and confused, having simply stretched our wings too early, falling out of the Garden, not yet ready for our inheritance as children of God.  So God calls from on high, the  Christos comes down to our level, we all cry and seek shelter from the storms.  

Robin dad still calls from the pine tree.  

Fledging

This world is merely a launching point.  To understand the Purpose and Reality of the stew while just looking at the iron pot is impossible.  This world is the iron pot.  But the feast in preparation is not evident if you just study the iron.

This world is preparing the feast of Love, a purified Love of the highest form.  The pot of this physical world boils and mixes the conscious life in a chaotic mix of unpredictable roiling bubbles and steam.  It is madness, this world, mad and maddening chaos instituted by the sizzling pot.  But out of that cauldron of churning madness is distilled pure Love.

All the generosity and compassion we can muster will never fix the world.  But all that generosity and compassion  creates the pure Love that endures through eternity.  The world is never fixed, yet not one whit of selfless Love ever goes to waste.  

We experience only the physical structure of the iron pot and the chaos induced at its simmering surface.  So we struggle as we should to end the wars and the bigotry and the homelessness.  In the process we change and heal lives.  But the world still has the wars and the homeless and the suffering and it always will.  It always will until this age passes, and it always will provide fertile ground for creating the senseless, irrational Love that is eternal. 

And God looked upon it with the deepest of sorrows and said “it is good, it is very good”.

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Living in faith means of necessity living in contradiction to the world.  Prayer is not evidently productive; to listen to God and Spirit is to not listen to advice and demands of this world.  

Living in faith means not prioritizing all the things that the world prioritizes.  Living in faith is crazy.  The faith commitment will for a while move forward in the illusion that faith and prayer will be consistent with the unfolding of worldly circumstances.  But sooner or later comes the painful realization that faith demands a path so divergent from the practicalities of career and social popularity and productivity and security and wealth accrual that faith is demanding something really crazy, and making that demand without guarantee of outcome.  Through the heart, through ineffable longing, through an inscrutable rightness, through irresistible temptation away from common sense and security, faith proffers its offers, and we linger a little too long, feel a little too right, immerse irretrievably too deeply in that baptism that makes no sense to anyone else, and if we dare admit it, makes no sense to us.

We may turn from it for a while, worldly logic and necessity may momentarily prevail, but we can never forget our affair with faith, that glimpse of something we do not yet recognize, that touch so foreign and familiar…...faith….mad, maddening, marvelous, motivating faith, senseless, pointless, and essential.

 Copyright 2021 Don Ray.  Feel free to print and share.

Wednesday, June 30, 2021

Boring Angels

Boring Angels

 Copyright 2021 Don Ray. Feel free to print and share.

Relationships with angels lack reciprocity.  You cannot help the angel.  You cannot even tell the angel anything it does not already know.  Therefore, there is limited Unity in such a relationship because it is so lopsidedly one way

By the same token Adam had God and all the angels and all Creation with which to commune.  Yet Adam felt lonely.  Conversations ain’t conversations if one party already knows everything and is in no way altered by the interaction.

Adam needed another human, and it had to be a decidedly different human.  A second Adam, a twin with the same outlooks and thoughts, twins mutually unchanged by their interactions, would not have sufficed for Unity.  

We crave, Creation craves, the universe functions, to support Unity, and Unity entails mutual support and growth and creation.

Pray to and with God, give thanks for angels, but it is with kindred spirits, it is in the mutually shared struggles and celebrations of kindred spirits, that we experience Unity and the fulfillment of Purpose.

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Flightless Souls on Walkabout

Flightless Souls On Walkabout

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 On a bench at the pond, post sunrise, the three Marx brothers ducks at my fe

The Marx brothers prune themselves in the morning low angle light, a fresh cool breeze slipping across the pond,

Little quaking sounds and little waterfall sounds and little bird songs accompanying this heavenly scene.

I remain in my usual wrestling match with God, marveling at the Paradox of the inherent beauty of life and Nature versus the inherent suffering and tragedy of Life and Nature.

The Marx brothers tuck their heads into wings and go back to sleep, right in front of me, just across the trail, the shadow of my toes touching a tail, the shadow of my head extending far beyond them.

Thank You!  Thank You!  Thank You!

Occasionally I see the Marx brothers going on long walkabouts, heading up the hill and into the woods, dangerous terrain far from the security of the pond, brushy terrain in which their flightless forms could be easily trapped and destroyed by a dog or a fox.  How I worry about them!  If I see them in time I try to herd them back toward the pond, as I scold them for such foolish and unnecessary behavior.  But their behavior is necessary.  The urge to wander, to get about, to explore that other place and it's potential, that is as ingrained in their being as it is in the nature of wild ducks who can fly.  

The wild ducks never sit in a pond week after week, month after month.  Through the course of even a day they fly from place to place, this creek, that meadow, into the next valley.

The Marx brothers have to try to do the same, regardless of their flightless wings.

So they waddle up trails into dry woods and I fret about them until they reappear at the pond.

We, just as flightless, our conscious souls trapped in a temporal blindness and localized into a carnal body, also feel driven to wander, to explore possibilities, to take risks, even risking our souls.  We explore beliefs and faiths and ways of being and ways of living, though that may mean leaving the security of the familiar and traditional.  

I fret about the Marx brothers but can do little more than fret.  God frets about us but can do little more than fret.

Our souls cannot yet fly, our eyes cannot yet see beyond the frame of time flickering before our consciousness.  But explore we must, we the fallen

Waddling Marx brothers, struggling humans, we seek fulfillment in our destiny, impatient with our present lot, wings not flying, minds not comprehending.

It is what it is, this perennial dissatisfaction.  It must be so if we are to ever someday fly.  But in the meantime, let our burning dissatisfaction and temporal blindness and carnal imprisonment and flightless wings not blind us to the beauty that we can experience and the life we already have.  

Let us go on our clumsy and dangerous spiritual walkabouts, for such is our inescapable nature.  Let us not forget though the momentary spiritual home that awaits our return, that place for our soul that nurtures and heals and protects us though we cannot, yet, fly.

Copyright 2021 Don Ray.  Feel free to print and share.


Monday, June 28, 2021

Mere Mountains to Be Moved

 Mere Mountains to Be Moved

Copyright 2021 Don Ray.  Feel free to print and share.


The world,

chaos and madness,

tearing and conflicting,

confusing and confounding.


How much can you stand?

How much can you bear?  


Each gathering of people

compounding the loneliness.

Each material gift

cementing the isolation.


Predictable and consistent,

the shallow prattle;

lives so close,

yet still untouched.


None know,

no, not one.

no basis for communication,

no common ground.


Relentless the misunderstanding.

pointless, the words.

relentless, the calling,

pointless, the denial.


Abiding, the principle,

    and purpose,

    and prayer.


The path was never clear

    because it never existed.

Yet against all odds,

    clueless and naive,

you got somewhere,

and quite a somewhere it was.

It was in fact perfect,

those somewheres raggedly stitched

together by the miracles.


You just didn’t realize 

how hopeless your situation was.


Now you do.


That’s the only difference.

Now you blindingly see

    the abject hopelessness

    of the cause.


You’ve been given the

    multitude of failures

to purify your faith.

    Each reminder of hopelessness

and helplessness

    Is a gift,

    a gift of opportunity,

steel and beams and concrete

to erect a structure of faith,

not a mere mountain

    to be moved,

but a mountain

    to be built.


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